the hearts thoughts

tonight as i kissed your hand
the more i knew i would understand
the warmth inside my heart does burn
i knew inside i have more to learn

tonight as i kissed you good-bye
my heart inside could only cry
i know how close we can be
but to get so close I must set free

tonight as i walked away
knowing i had a complete day
i stand and think of whats to come
inside i know two... is one

gH
3/28/99
6:49pm

kiss my smile

lay your lips upon my heart
trust my kiss and never part
place your smile upon my face
whisper soft your breath i taste

let your soul slip through your kiss
every heart beat makes a wish
lay your hand so soft in mine
let our fingers lose track of time

in my heart i hold your own
and in my smile my day dreams grow
so in my sleep you kiss my smile
to never wake would be worth while

gH
3/24/99

broken hearts in love

through the mist of whispers
lost in eyes of mine
kiss my heart ache blisters
wipe my tears aside
talk to me in silence
ask me questions why
pull my answers out
make your heart feel mine
walk away forever
leave me stand and be
crush our hearts together
chain your love to me

gH
3/14/99
2:42pm

prince of lies

i am the cold around you
and the fire in your eyes
i am the rage that surrounds you
and my tears are filled with lies
i am the hurt inside you
and the laugh behind your back
i am the joy to tease you
and i am the heart attack	
i am the last kiss ever
and i never say im wrong
i am the one you hate
but you are the one who's strong

gH
10:40pm
2/5/99

thoughts

a voice inside me whispered
as a smile opened my face
a grin i still remembered
my heart wont dare erase
the distance outside hurts
since your very far away
the closeness inside births
a friendship flame so great
so take my hand in darkness
under your closed eyes
imagine im there sitting
right here by your side.

gH
1/11/99
12:05pm

bleed

my hands pressed so tightly
around the wrists she broke
her life flows so freely
my heart begins to choke

our tears are mixed together
i ask the question why
i try to force an answer
before she starts to die

with our words mixed with kisses
she asks me for a wish
i ask her not to talk 
but she whispers through her kiss

forever ever love me
and never let me die
ill always be above you
and stand there by your side

her eyes closed so slowly
the last tears rolled away
and there i sat in her life
as she bled and fade away

gH
1/4/99

hurt

i died and had to leave you
alone to face the day.
i always stood beside you
but your hurt would always stay
and when i tried to kiss you
your stream of tears would pour
and even though i missed you
your hearts pain hurt me more
i didnt know i could hurt you
for watching you so close.
so now you have to forget me
and me, i must kill my ghost
so i say my last few wishes
and then my final goodbye
and soon from there on after
your heart hurts no more then mine.

gH
12/24/98
10:16pm

the hand upon my forhead

im so cold mommy
let your hand stay
im so hot mommy
take your hand away
is this a dream mommy?
or am i still awake?
im so sick mommy
i wasnt yesterday

im so tired mommy
dont let me fall asleep
sit me up straight mommy
even though i feel so weak

lay your hand upon my forhead
so i know your still there
you have it there for reason
but right now i just dont care

mommy im so sleepy
i really must fall asleep
and if i dont wake up mommy
have your hand check for heat

gH
12/20/98
1:39am

her first step away

I need someone
to trust me in silence
I need to believe your heart 
caused my violence
trusting your heart
for trusting my soul
the biggest mistake 
your worlds ever known
healing the pain
that grows deep inside
casting me out 
then trying to hide 
this time i fear 
your heart has won
but deep down inside
my rage is undone.
gH
12/13/98
5:02pm

eyes

through your dark glassy glaze
i see your tears stand in my way

and even when their closed
i still see deep down in your soul

its the gateway to your heart
so your eyes are where i start

and with my kiss of passion flammed
you win my heart and im to blame

so in your eyes lies the smile
no need for lips when you got mine.

gH
5:22pm
12/5/98

take

take my heart
its good for nothing
all my love has ran away

take my eyes
they wont see nothing
what do u look like anyway?

take my mind
it wont remember
i forgot what i wanted to say

but take my kiss
its worth something
i hope you feel the same way.

gH
11/29/98
6:00pm

at night

my pillow holds a sea,
a tide of tears 
poured out from me
and when i miss you 
late at night
a pillow kiss
i wish felt right
but yet im left
with a taste of tears
so many cried 
over the years
each one a wish
soaked in with fear
its times like now
i need you here.

gH
11/26/98
7:36pm

his wish

a lover laid down on his bed
his eyes fell closed before he did
a hand came close and held it tight
his lovers love was clear and bright
she knew he was close to his death
a few small words slipped from his breath
a tear rolled down dripped to her breast
she wrapped his arms around her chest
laying down upon his heart
she cried out load for it to start
but in a whisper all she knew
her lover said..
"let me die holding you"

gH
11/22/98
5:10pm

rage

now my heart is angry
the spirit just fuels my flame
twist the knife into me
turn the hate into blame

i can not hurt you
i cant even hurt myself
so hurt yourself
and ill hurt myself

when i open my eyes
i hope to see you standing there
the look upon your cold face
makes me wonder if you really care

say goodnight to my heart
its sleeping time is almost here
dont expect it to wake up
your love for me is just not fair.
gH
11/17/98
8:10
	

moment

falling down around my feet
tears and rain are mixed when meet
kiss me please its all i ask
hold my hand and make it last
eyes in eyes im lost in you
holding on, you holding too
time has stopped for now with us
soul in soul its not enough
falling down around your feet
holding close i fall asleep.

gH
11/13/98
5:59pm

around roses

my new room is very dark
no light, no air, no window mark
a pillow rests my helpless head
my arms laid crossed 
my heart beat dead
inside my mind i wonder why
but slowly now my thoughts run dry
a force unknown opens the roof
a light pours in gives life its proof
standing up i look around 
my eyes are lost in what they found
a colour here a flower there
are roses placed everywhere
before im pulled up away
a smile breaks my sad last day
gH
11/13/98
4:27pm

a lovers gift

today is the last day
now leave me alone
forever the next day
my heart is your home
inside my dark wonders
you see how im lost
twist like new lovers
that line they now cross
a kiss on the soul
a gift to the womb
the lovers give life
to a whole other you
gH
11/12/98
4:02pm

lovu
dont let me do this to me
make the feeling go away
when something feels so right
it always never stays
i know this kind of emotion
the one with ups and downs
the one that made me miss you
the one i feel right now
a forever winning battle
this love inside of me
and when it takes me over
i lovu cant u see.
gH
11/7/98
10:18pm

silence

my feelings dont complain
my heart begins to roar
the season is the same
my temper grows more and more

my hands are always tide
and lips are always sealed
the kisses that i give
are kisses i cant feel

the twist in life is hurtful
the love in mine is pain
the passion in me, poison
but still i dont complain.
gH
11/7/98
9:55pm

goodnight daddy

dear daddy, dont let them take me,
the light is so bright, 
mommies not here with me
daddy it just dosnt feel right
tell mommy i love her
i hear grandpa calling my name
please daddy dont cry, your
life will never be the same.
dear daddy kiss me, ill always
be your girl, tell mommy ill miss her
and ill always keep my curls
think of me forever, ill always be near
ask for my presence im sure ill always hear
time to say goodbye now, the man i see says so.
goodnight daddy forever, my love for you is true
ill always be your little girl forever inside you.
gH
11:48pm
10/23/98

souls

laying here beside me
arms wrapped tight and round
i can hear your dreaming
your breath and every sound
i can smell your kisses
from very far away
like whispers in the night time
lips locked there to stay
souls that crash together
locked in dreams of love
catches from the heavens
so far below the above
gH
11:41pm
10/23/98

dont miss me

come here and kiss me
hold your hand in mine

dont ever miss me
i'll always be by your side

tell me you love me
even though i know

tell me your with me
right in my ear

whisper, then kiss me
both things so clear

hand on my heart beats
every beat yours

say you'll not miss me
but im sure that you will

i know i will miss you
as much as i will

gH
10/16/98
6:25pm

fresh rain

Im not afraid to learn
and Im not afraid to feel
ask me what tomorrow is
and I'll show you its not real

set your arms out before me
pull the wet fresh rain in
let the drops kiss your eye lids
hold the wind tight within

im not afraid of hurt
and im not afraid of pain
but when i see your tear drops
its then im afraid of rain.
gH
10/12/98

if only

how many times will you 
teach me how to cry
how many words will you
say without them all being lies
how is it the kiss you pull away
be the kiss i wish would stay
how is it the days are slipping by
one day closer till we die
how is it the thoughts inside your mind
are never thoughts the same as mine
how is a promise never owned
a secret never free
how is a love i fear as grown
and still you wont tell me
gH

my pain tonight

take a look long and hard
take a stand beside my heart
hold my hand and stand up tall
be my life my one, my all

look at me in pain tonight
but still you stand no end in sight
hand in hand, heart with heart
twist the life thats now so dark

now you are my pain tonight
the tears that fall and end my life
and when our kiss of lips do part
my pain will take me to the start
gH
09/16/98
8:13pm

3
i sent you all my kisses
i gave you all my heart
i wrote you tons of letters
but still you broke apart

you cried a million tear drops
they washed your face away
but still when it turns day time
my voice is in your way

i loved you more then that girl
and i gave you more then most
but still you ask me for this...
my heart, my soul, my ghost
gH
09/12/98
7:26pm

clear
i can see you in the night time
i can hear you in my ear
i cant kiss you when i miss you
but i see your face so clear

as i push me to the limit
make my mind dream more and more
its you i keep on seeing
its you my heart beats for

so when tears become clear kisses
and sound becomes clear sight
the face i see at night time
is clear as day with light
gH
09/04/98
10:07pm   

Covers
buried deep in my shadow
staying far away from cold
lost in my own space
fearing wishes ive sold

deep in my covers
safe from my day
sleep until morning
watch night pass away

kissed by my angel
no longer she stays
pulls up my covers
holds hands and prays

under my covers
my cold body lays
sleep there forever
while angle still prays

drift off to safety
unsure of where
but now with no covers
i dont feel so bare
gH
09/02/98
8:27pm

all thats left

my heart is walking away from me
and my soul is not far behind
my kisses fell off my lips
my eyes closed and died

my hands refuse to hold myself
the words i speak to you, so bold
my skin is walking over bones
my bones are ash, my nails were gold

my teeth are grey 
with gums all blue
my mind is blank 
except of you.
gH
08/29/98
7:34pm

distant
i can feel you in the words i breath
when i close my eyes its your eyes i see
after tears run off my face 
pass a kiss my lips embrace
dream a sleep in which we meet

watch your love grow inside my heart
hold it close so we never part
with a simple yes and no
distance is something that will never grow
gH
08/23/98 11:35am

into me
cant you hear the noise
its screaming through my heart
cant you see the pain
is breaking me apart
why do you push me behind
hoping that my eyes are blind
cant you walk away
hurt me some other way

twist inside my soul
take it for your own
cant you hurt me now
it feels so right somehow
into me i see that 
nothings left for me
gH 
08/12/98 1:49pm

untitled
 taste my heart i hand to you
all my life iv looked for you
in my dreams i hold you tight
in the day for dreams i fight
pull my soul from inside me
wash the love stains off of me
burn my eyes into your heart
kiss the pain you helped me start
break the words from my mouth
kiss the hurt that makes me shout
walk on glass bite the steel
but in my heart i know you feel
gH 
08/08/98 5:52pm

Gently Hoping
  she walks on broken hearts
  steals a new one everyday
  takes her time when tears are falling
  she never takes the time to stay
  
holds the key to hearts of many
  breaks the trust off locks a plenty
how she gently wins her kisses
then rips the hurt and never misses

in a broken world she wonders
breaking hearts as she ponders
when she dies the loves shes broken
will be free from Gently Hoping.
gH 07/31/98
  

under

i catch some rain in my mouth
to taste a kiss i dream about
i put my hand up to my lips
place my kiss on rain drop drips
close my eyes inside the dark
see the black and then your spark
hold my hand as i go in
under sleep my dream will win

gh 07/31/98 7:01pm

broken

once again you have broke me
took away my heart and choked me
walked away from in me
on my knees you killed me

inside my walls of prison
your hearts a cold dark vision
my cries of hurt are spoken
in sounds of hearts you've broken

im woken up from my bed
the cries so load my ears go dead
a kiss away a heart so cold
i turn my head my heart i fold

gH 07/31/98 6:36pm

push
  reach a little deeper
  find the one and keep her
  pull away break apart
  follow feelings in your heart 

  cast aside the hate within
  push your love watch it spin
  twist a kiss, pull a soul
  fill your hand with hands unknown 

  stand away and look ahead
  your hands are full with love instead
  pull them close push them hard
  hug the hate that broke your heart

  gh

  07/25/98

  9:45pm

    

The Silent You 

in this room inside my heart
no doors, no end, can't find the start
just the sound of rushing wind
past my face my hands and in
on my knees inside this room
no life to live, my cries in tune
with the drums that beat the walls
i crash, i burn, i bleed, then fall.
no sound has ever left my mouth
no words have ever need come out
in my room without a view
the sound is silent, the sound is you.
gH
1:55pm
07/16/98



    

Sleep
rest your head right next to mine
close your eyes and ignore the time
place your hand upon my heart
fall asleep dont fall apart

in your sleep dream of me
i dream of you, in dreams i see.
rest your head upon my chest
let my heart beats say the rest

now you sleep and sleep so well
eyes are closed but dreams do tell
i kiss you soft i close my eyes
for now i sleep with you tonight.
gH
07/09/98
1:28pm
    

fallen 
behind my eyes i am so broken
inside my head my thoughts are woken
i clench my fist into a ball
take my hand so i don't fall
my heart is broke, i broke for you
you saw my tears, my tears were true
i kissed my hand to feel my love
i reached the sky for you above
you took my hand and let me fall
forever big but never small
gH
07/06/98 7:29pm


  

when love hates

when i hold my feelings in
my heart grows old
my soul grows thin
my tears get heavy
my head hangs low
my hate for hurt begins to grow

and as i rip a kiss from lips
lips so red their touch i miss
a tear, a drop inside my eyes
the look of hate who stands and cries
when love has won and love stands great
the hate for love is what love hates
gH
06/29/98 12:31am 

every good soul

i sit, i watch, i start to cry
every good soul deserves to cry
i stand, i hold, i watch sky
every good soul deserves a why
i touch, i hear, i stand at start
every good soul deserves a heart
i burn, i feel, i catch the wind
every good soul at one time sinned.
i sit, i stand, i touch, i die
every good soul who falls will fly.
gH

want
i'm all there is that's left of me
my heart has grown my love is free
i want a soul that's not my own
who knows my heart, its beat, its tone
inside my head i see her face
it's all i have for me to embrace
i want to catch her voice, her tears
dreams are made to last for years
want is all i ever think
before too long my sad heart sinks.
gH
06/26/98
12:51am

hide
inside my fist i hold a key
a key that locks my heart from me
the words of gold you want to hear
are words i say that sound so clear
inside my mind a word will form
the key unlocks, a love is born
a fist, a key, my heart inside
the tear that falls, my face i hide.
gH
06/20/98 5:47pm

wrap your arms around my heart
whisper dreams from the start
kiss and touch but never tell
your heart's a secret 
i'll hold it well.
gH 

hand in hand the lovers stand
kiss by kiss their lips will land
look by look the lovers smile
stand and kiss, laugh awhile

word by word lovers fight
a kiss a hug will fix it right
lovers can and always will
live forever when hearts are still.
gH 
06/15/98 1:28am

my tears are bleeding
my hearts reseeding
my soul has washed away
my fingers cold
my nails are old
my eyes are washed away
my skin walks in waves
my hair falls to grey
my words are washed away.
gH
06/15/98 1:14am

one more hand falls to the ground
one less life, no breath no sound
to catch a kiss from the wind
to pull the wish and watch it spin.

a kiss of fire burns too deep
my heart is cold my kisses weak
my lips of ice the frost inside
the kiss of fire burns my pride
a wall of heat a hug so tight
the kiss of fire now feels so right. 

gH
06/11/98
12:10am

we are real inside our hearts
no lies break us apart
but love can make us fall
make us real, make us small

inside my heart i stay
the safest place to play
but you are so real
my eyes reach out and feel
the warm inside your hand
that's how real I am.
gH
06/06/98 

i could cry myself to sleep
and whisper words so deep
my mind could ask you why
your answer truth, but lie
and as i cry into my sleep
my tears begin to speak
the years have washed away
but still comes yesterday
each one marks a new year
a clear and thoughtful fear
so hold my hand don't speak
and let me stand and weep
gH

it was the hardest thing i had ever done
to share my tears when i had none
so many spilt upon my grave
i caught them all so i could save
i held a hand, it was my own
so sad i was, so all alone.
i promised myself i would fix it all
i pulled and dropped so far to fall
my hands broke free my eyes grew thin
the dark came fast the dark was sin.
so there i was my promise made
no life to live my life unsaved.
a promise made a promise kept
then i woke, i wept,
i wept.

gH
05/26/98

can you feel the fire
my eyes burn so cold
i want to touch your heart
i want to touch your soul

my fingers made of ice
melt upon your skin
the touch of love
is deeper than 
the power i have
within.
gH


05/25/98

my heart was cold i crashed into the hill
the leaves that blew the wind inside my mind
my eyes grew old and saw when dark stood still
the red of blood came running down my cheek
i felt the heat of it as it mixed with my sweat
i cried the tears so many people see
i asked each one could they answer me
one said no and one said yes
i asked for more and all i got was this
another grip onto my soul
as it ripped and when it missed
my stop came to and i opened up my eyes
i saw the green leaves and the purple sky
so i crushed and walked away
left my heart and soul for death to play.
gH  

05/17/98

opening my eyes not realizing what i'd done
my hands were stained my soul had run
before i knew what to think
i grabbed the knife, no time to blink
i scrubbed so hard my thoughts ran wild
looking up i glanced and then i smiled
"my darkest day is finally here
i'm happy now no room for fear"
they took my hands, in chains i walked
my head held high as voices talked
they told me what a job i'd done
i'd be repayed a handsome sum
my darkest day was not my last
the day i died soon came fast
that's when i closed my eyes to see
a fiery hole and damned was me.
gH 

05/11/98

his fingers were cold as he opened the door
as soon as he saw, his heart sunk some more
the people he saw he knew very well
the mother of love, the father from hell.
their eyes were sad, but not knowing why
he asked the question, and started to cry.
the story he heard from the parents who told
the love of his life had died and was cold.
he sat on his door-step and started to weep
his heart grew old and its beat grew weak.
then from the blue a hand from the sky
his lover's dad stood, one tear in his eye.
"Son" he said "I miss her too"
"life is short, live it true" 

gH 

i place my hand upon my chest
feel the beat that never rests
so many people help it pump
so many loves have made it jump
so i crashed my soul into the sea
my blood took hold and set it free
inside my heart so many names
all carved in walls with no room for blame.
so as i finish up this poem
know inside my heart you roam.
gH 
05/07/98

she stands all day, her smile so bright
her sheep she loves and hugs so tight. 

In tears I see how sadness smiles
the warm spark glow makes it all worth while

her love has died but she stands tall
not knowing whats next, not willing to fall

her cast away heart will never forget
the sheep she's touched the love she's never met.
gH 
05/04/98

everyday he came by.
sat and talked tears with smiles.
laid his hand upon her head 
held the stone tight and said
"i love you so and always will"
"but love is old and love can kill"
he put his ring upon her grave 
said goodbye without a wave.
kiss the words that read so clear
rest in peace my wife, my dear.
gH 

he sat by her side to hold her hand
felt the heart beat and began to stand
she opened her eyes and looked his way
tears rolled down as she began to say
"its dark in here, no need for light,
take my hand it's alright"
he stood and watched and God took her life
and yet he thanked him for a wonderful wife.
as he sat down and looked to the dark
he remembered how fire started for spark
as he got up he heard her say clear
"i'm happy my love, I'll always be near"
gH

do you want me?
how i hate you.
did i ask you?
i don't think so
with a question
give an answer
see me stand
up so high
close your eyes
stare up now
break a promise
how i hate you
feel my anger
heat from blame
feed on tears
drain and strain
what have i done? 
gH

as i lay back and stare at the sky
i dream of a heart that beats with mine
watchin the stars come out at night
knowing the sun still shares its light.

catching a wish from a bright streak
hoping a kiss will fall on my cheek
then as i drift off to my sleep
the dream of true love makes my heart weak

holding the hand that never was there
feeling the breath of cold fresh air
watching the morning creep its way in
knowing the night will be back when dim.
gH 
  

life, do you think its unworthy
did you fall from inside heaven?
i, i am unworthy
you're strange with your timing
slide, slide into heaven
hope no one's watching.
break, break into my soul
ask me two questions
then say you know.
gH

by dawn I take its hand
and warm the cold dark land
of hate grown in between the
whisper never seen
It squeezed and broke in two
one lost but one to few, and
as the dark beats the light
the day will win the fight,
but soon a heart grows small
the soul will take its fall.
Again a love is saved, a heart
that stands so brave, the 
soul regains its light.
so Again I sleep tonight.
gH 

his heart is cold as he wants to feel
his mind is old but still is real.
he is the wind around her hair
and blows sweet songs into her ear.
she loves her day but still is sad
when love is there but can't be had
and once the moon goes down at night
the angel sits just out of sight.
he must never show or hide his face
just walk behind at a slower pace
hold her hand without the touch
kiss her cheek but not to much.
his happy heart will not feel
but when shes dies he turns real. 

gH 

I feel Joy surrounding my heart
holding a love that won't fall apart
taking my mind to bright and happy places
bending my face into pretty smiley faces

She holds my thoughts in her soft hands
but I don't think she knows or really understands
of how much I know and really feel
I really cant believe that this girl is real.

No matter how long or short the day
I will always have thoughts of her stored away
I won't ever hurt them or even destroy
because deep down inside my heart is full of
Joy.
  (Spring 1996)gH

  

just one time don't fade away
stay awhile let me see your face.
pass me up and look to my heart
the red in it is where i start.

place your hands upon my back
take the soul that stars attack
and as i fall fast asleep
fade to black my life's last blink. 

gH 

  

she's a heart with fire in her soul 
her love of hate burns beyond control 
her perfect eyes can see the day, 
but perfect night is what she craves. 

She's the stars in the sky, 
and the night that never dies. 
In the sun she burns her light, 
but when the moon takes her sight 
she will close her eyes and give him night. 
gH 

  

As bright as your eyes can be
as green as your eyes can get
as far as we are apart...
my wish is to never forget... 

As deep as my heart goes,
as far as you can see...
you can hold it forever...
then set my wish free. 

As bright as my eyes are..
as round as they can be
the day I meet you...
will be the day I truly see. 

So forever keep on wishing
and forever hold my heart..
and maybe one day soon,
our wish will truly start. 

gH 

catch it in your hands 
hold it in your heart 
look into your eyes 
and whisper 

take a finger and stop my tear 
it's rolling down my face so clear 
full of love, full of hate 
this tear so clear has no room for fate. 

as i whisper on this night 
scared to wake, scared to fight 
whisper soft, whisper clear.. 
i love you more then you can hear. 
gh 

walk alone into the night 
ask a bird to take its flight
swim away into the sea
but still i'm sad as sad can be 

pull the blue from the sky
take the truth and from a lie
make love and test your fate
save a life when it's to late

as a tear rolls from an eye
try and catch but watch it dry
as the love begins to seep
my sad sad heart begins to weep

gH 

your neck was warm 
i remember that well.
your tear was wet 
even though it was one.
i held my breath 
so you could breathe 
and i was born again. 

im back to save the end
to keep you warm. 
take my heart, as it beats for two
ask me later and my side will stop for you.

you're warm, i remember that well 
my hand was cold but you held it still.
and as i died and passed away 
you stayed and kept me 
warm. 

gH

who are you? 
and what is your name? 
do you know me? 
do we think the same? 
are we soul mates? 
is it love at first sight? 
do we marry? 
will we fight? 
you are out there 
and i here 
never knowing a love that i fear 
will i meet you 
or will you meet me? 
will we be together? 
i guess I'll wait and see. 
gH
05/05/97 6:47pm 

have you ever wanted to love? 
to be close but are afraid? 
have u ever wanted to hold? 
but had to drop and let go? 

i'm afraid....i'm in love. 
i'm there i'm above... 
afraid of hurt 
scared of the pain 
i had it all before 
and then was left with blame. 

to hold? to let go? 
to grab? to say no? 
i want? i can't? i what? 
i am.. 
i'm up, i'm down, i'm in, i'm out. 
i'm scared. i'm afraid. 
gH

  

this time i feel my heart break
calm me sir.....i'm scared 
it's going to be ok, this time. 

is that me in the mirror? 
sir is that me? 
i guess this time i lost it. 

by name i have missed it 
sir give me your hand... 
i'll kiss it, this time. 

i feel my luck could change...this time.

gH.

i'm back to see the end 
the one that fell apart
i wonder what it's like 
take me to the start 

i'm back to the start 
how will it end? 
i'm cold and broken 
what is my reaction? 

apart is where i want to be 
two people forever makes three
the killer inside of me is free.

gH. 

my goodness stopped as soon as I was dead
i laid down and let it take me away 
for a great white from a great life. 

hang down, rain down on me. 
from a great life, no sense left. 
the darkness in all of us 
it takes over and rules. 
insane to blame the one who came 
take a life from a great white.... 
i ran away...my piece of paper with 
his name i cried, happy to run away. 
a dream so real. i laid in bed and 
dream't i ran away. 

gH

(this poem makes no sense but the dream was so real and the last words 
i remember hearing were "that's the darkness inside of us" so i had to 
write something about it) waking up can be a real bitch sometimes. 

Dressed up as a flower
asked a simple question
never got away. 

crushed like a fly 
never got to say goodbye
juices for a winter. 

sentimental anger 
i am anger in reaction 
killer is forever. 

after...i'm sad. 

gH

her reflection is rubber glass
her hand is tied in strands 
her life is made of laughs 
it wears her out 

her love falls to the floor 
just crumbles and dies 
i take her by the hand 
hold her eyes in mine 
it wears me out 

can i take you by the hand? 
end the fear right now... 
and it wears me out 

if i could be...like you 
it would wear me out. 

gH 09/25/97 1:50pm

do you hate me?
I'm sure do 
i'm a jerk for being true... 
wanted nothing, i got less 
take some more it's for the best...

ask a question...hell, ask two 
i'm the one who made you do... 
the things i hate to see you do.. 
do you hate me? 
i sure do 
i'm a jerk for being true. 
gH

 

flow deeper, in and out. 
ask a question, scream and shout. 
love another, filled with doubt. 
can you care for me? 
have a love built free. 

take a hand and break it.... 
have a heart and fake it.. 
is it hurt? why can't i feel it? 
burn it and steal it.. 
love it and be it. 
gH 

  

does it make you happy?
do you feel arranged? 
all the people laughing...
you're so strange. 

take a heart and break it
make love to the day.. 
ask another question... 
the answer is you're strange

make a night forever... 
break a day's worth pay.. 
love the father's mother 
and to me you're strange. 

gH.

Kick the stomach makes me thicker
pushing me makes me sicker
spit on me cheat on me 
take a life for a lover 
bang my head to fall further
ask a lover for another 

and i'd trade it all for you.. 
and i'd break it all for you 
cheat on me.... 
take my heart away 

gh 

Like love falling in love with love
there is a way to take it all above
to wonder or wander to stay to fall
i want to be and i want it all

take a hand, take your own, take a heart
and let it grow, let it love let it see 
life is not all it's cracked up to be. 

follow the dark and now the light 
take a road that's full of fright and... 
see a world that's scared of you 
scared of what you know is true... 

how you can you break a dark heart? 
blind it with a bright spark... 
with the bright spark...hold your hate 
hold it tight, hold it till your hands are white.

gH.
12:58am 05/26/97 

i am you....
you are me too....
take away.... 
point your finger...
hate me....love 
follow me.... 
follow me to gravity....
blood...hate... 
slip in two... 
break fix me you... 
take along.... 
steal it clean... 
wash my hands.... 
make me free.... 
want my eyes... 
grow some more... 
i need my skin.... 
without my love.. 
take some more... 
and as i love some more 
i burn and die... 
so i cry and lie 
and i don't mind.... 
and don't feel 
and like... 
i don't see. 
i am you 
break in two.. 
make me three... 
i love you... 
gH

as a flower grows into a leaf 
a world breaks down and sobs in grief 
the long life and love turns to hate 
god cries out and shuts his gates.

i see the sinner in me is hate 
a love that breaks needs a mate 
you're the center of truth today 
and my sin won't let it go away 

i take the apple and eat it too 
the bitter sweet that died for you 
the end is here and all but true. 
take my hand ill lead you through.. 

gH. 

as the wind blows 
and time goes by i fear some change.
time seems to pass 
and the world goes on 
but the day comes again 

and as the cold
takes over the warm
and as the rain
takes over the dry
the day comes again

as in a day a life is born 
and as in a day a life is taken
and the day comes again. 
gH